Coffee Crotch

So this morning at 6AM in all of my gracefulness...I was getting into my car after preparing my venti coffee at Starbucks...when I tripped and managed to spill coffee all over my pant leg...and yes...yes...right centering on my crotchel area :0 Well, needless to say...I laughed...cause that only happens to me at 7AM in the morning when I have to see patients all day! So...I came into work and drenched myself in water to get the stain out....so now I have a HUGE wet spot on my crotch...I love my life! Seriously...I think it is hilarious...I wish I could take a picture for you!

Anyway, life is going well...I have been so exhausted though...surprise surprise! Yesterday marked 6 months of Jason and I being together...crazy huh! Who would have thought! We didn't get to see each other b/c I had to work but he sent me a whole bunch of sweet messages. OH and the other day he bought me a fossil watch I had looked at. No reason..no occassion...just knew I wanted it...knew I would never buy it...so he got it for me. Really...could he be any sweeter? I don't think so. :)

Anyway, I had a pretty good weekend. Actualyy, both Jason and I were in odd and sensitive moods. We kept thinking the other person was mad at us. Yes...we needed sleep :) We went to this thing called Grapefest where there is wine tasting, etc. We didn't stay there too terribly long b/c there was a TON of people and we didn't feel like getting drunk. So...we went to Wal-Mart, bought Monopoly...bough junk food...and headed back to the apartment! Well, right as we sat down to play, my cousin called me drunk off his butt!

This is the cousin that I am super close to and anyway...I was really stressed out and worried afterward..crying...you know...that kinda ruined the monopoly mood. Jason was so perfect though. I tried to act fine and continue playing but he was like..."No, you are not okay...talk about it." (No, Jason is not gay) So, I of course started crying...had to go get some fresh air...then Jason brought me back inside...grabbed a blanket...some kleenexes...and sat with me on the couch. Just what I needed :) I love him!

I suck at blogging

So it appears I have failed to ever keep my blog updated. Since the stalker diaries everything has pretty much been down hill. BUT--I guess acknowledging my inconsistency is better than nothing right :)!

Well, life is going well still...just waiting for it to blow up in my face :) I have finally learned to be content with my crazy work schedule and can acutally find the good in it! I mean...I had a two day weekend..didn't have to come to work till 3 today and I have tomorrow off! So...all in all...not so bad. Then I just work Wed-Friday and I have another weekend! So...today I am not complaining...but give me a week!

My parents are out of town so I have been taking care of the dogs and haven't gotten to stay in one place. I have been at the apartment because my roommate just officially moved in and wanted me there....SO i have been getting up at 7 to let the dogs out in the morning. Not fun. Still...the world continues to turn despite my early morning wakening. I have been getting up at 5AM for the past week and will be a lot this week as well and I have to say I have been SO exhausted!

ANYWAY....stories!

So yesterday I went to the Red Dirt Round UP with Jason. The Red Dirt Round UP is an all day country concert...so much fun. They had a whole bunch of good Texas country, mainly Cross Candian Ragweed, The Randy Rogers Band, Robert Earl King, Kevin Fowler, Drive by Truckers, and the list goes on. Anyway, it was so much fun...we spent most of our day cracking up at the complete white trash that we were surrounded by. Some good TX country will make the rednecks crawl out of the woodworks! I can't even begin to describe my level of traumatization with the clothing I saw yesterday...not slutty...not skanky...just white trash. Sigh...I love Texas~

Anyway, Jason and I do NOT dance...we are both very opposed to it I believe...I just suck at it and he hates it...so we are PERFECT for each other in that respect. Well, if you have ever been to a country concert there is something called "drunk dancing"....which is different with country music. I can't quite describe it to you, but drunk dancing at a country concert holds its own definition...it all looks the same...everyone doing the swaying, head bobbing, butt shaking thing...just a complete loss of control of body parts that slink lazily about...it is quite the entertainment. SO, we spent a good portion of the day enjoying the drunken dancers and couples.....oh wait wait....by the end of the night we WERE the drunk dancing couple! That's right! And I have to say it was a lot of fun! I mean we weren't all out dancing...but just drunk dancing together...it was fun really...very fun. I think we reached a new level of dorkiness...which is pretty impressive considering the level which we were already at!

Anyway, we got home real late and were SO very tired...I pretty much passed out as soon as I saw my bed! Today was a good lazy day. It has been raining all day and has been the past two nights...so I have been enjoying that. Roomie, Jason, and I went to Chili's for lunch then I got ready and went to work! Great weekend I must say...one of the best I have had in a while! I am hoping to get out of town this next weekend and go see a few friends down in the Waco area...well, this is one long and boring post...so I will catch ya later!

MY Apartment

WELL WELL WELL!!!!! I am OFFICIALLY moved in to my apartment! Mind you...I am not unpacked, but I AM moved in. It is SO very cute and I love it! I will definately be putting up pics as soon as it gets pretty! I am so excited to have a housewarming party! I am at work and do not have a lot of time, so this is going to be super super short. BUT...moving in was fun..my parents, roommate, and Jason helped move me in and it all went very well. My dad and Jason put together all the furniture and they were all....I don't know...they were getting along...it was weird.

Jason was perfect and so helpful. He, along with every other guy in the world, is not too keen on hanging out with his girlfriend's parents...even went to dinner with them and he was all cute and conversational...he was perfect!

I love my apartment!

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WELL! Do I EVER have news! You were probably wondering where I disappeared to! WELL....guess who decided to surprise me and come home 1 week early!!!???? JASON! He came in last weekend and showed up at my house Sunday after church. You know how in the back of your mind you always hope people will do stuff like that??? WELL HE DID! I was so excited...still am actually! So very glad to have him home. It has been a very very good week. We haven't been doing too terrribly much...just enjoying each others presence! I have been dragging him around town looking for shower curtains, towels, etc (found some really cute ones!). Anyway, it has been good...very good.

Okay, if you are still reading this you should probably sit down...you may be shocked by what I am fixing to say. You know with my commitment issues etc.....well...I told Jason I love him. I'll admit it...it felt good :) So, applaud me for my overcoming whatever it is that is wrong with me when it comes to relationships and love! Hmm...I hope you have enjoyed the written documentation of my disfunctionalism when it comes to relationships. I was looking at my old blog and my progression from extreme to denial to casual acceptance to complete infatuation has been rather intriguing!

Anyway, I was suppose to move into my apartment yesterday....but that didn't happen....it has been post-poned till next weekend. The previous guy trashed the place and they are having to pretty much replace everything! So at least I am gettting new stuff! I haven't really started packing yet but I am planning on doing so on Tuesday. Jason's birthday is Wednesday and I have contemplated many things to do/get him but I still just can't decide. I told him he is on buying restrictions for a week. I know what I want to get him but the boy buys so much stuff I am waiting till Tuesday to get it....you never know with him!

Well, I am at work so I should probably do something workesk and maybe I will cave to my complete boredom and blog again later :)!

Closer

So this is what we do: we get up...go to work...eat...sleep...and do it all again. And somewhere in the midst of it all we try to live a little. Well, I HAVE LIVED :) That's right...I am officially the proud owner of a brand new washer and dryer! You are probably thinking the same thing J asked "tell me again why a new washer and dryer are so exciting?" WELL, it is my first purchase as an attempted grown up.

Now, let us take a moment to reflect and recognize the fact that I have no real intentions on "growing up"...as a matter of fact I think I am regressing into stages I never went through. This whole having my own money to spend thing is pretty great! Yesterday I bought my new bathroom set, 2 pairs of pj shorts, and the movie Crash (huh...where DID i put it?)! Anyway, today I am going shopping for underwear...cause I can! I don't really have much money, but I like to pretend I do. I really only spent $20 unnecessary dollars yesterday...but it is progress! I normally feel real guilty about spending money and buying myself unnecessary stuff like DVD's...wanna hear my rationalization for why I bought it...this is pretty great:

My rationalization for buying a DVD on sale for $10: Well, I figured to rent it would be $4.32 PLUS spending the gas to get to and from blockbuster PLUS the time it took to and from Blockbuster....SO we have opportunity cost...it just made more sense to buy it :) I know...I am a dork.

I realize I need no rationalization...yet I have to have it. AND can I say that I am in desperate need of approval of my bathroom set...and I am not sure why. I need everyone to tell me it is cute and not childish looking...why? WHY do I need everyone to tell me that...why is my liking it not good enough? These are things I cannot figure out...I need constant approval from all...which makes life difficult being that SOMEONE always fails to approve!

Anyway, I have been more daring with spending money lately...my friendships with K and Roommate plus J has helped me to not be SO ridiculously money conscious. Well, I will try to write again sooner! Until then...I am going to the mall!

OH OH OH!!!!!! I almost forgot....>CLOSER (the title of my post)>>>>>>IT is getting CLOSER!!! What is getting closer you ask? Well...2 things! J...what the heck JASON is coming back the 19th...less than 2 weeks! AND I move into my apartment the 19th! SO SO excited...I will have to update you on that man later :) Everything is great and I am SOO ready for him to come home to me!

Freedom and Sun Burns

This has been one of the best weekends in a while, nothing spectacular...just good. In case I haven't already said it a million times...I will be moving into MY apartment August 19th! I am so incredibly excited. My future roommate and I went to pick out furniture on Saturday and it is SO cute.

My roomie is buying the furniture cause she has lots of $$$ saved up...I am getting the washer, dryer, table, and TV. I am so pumped. I am moving in by myself on the 19th...and it may be a few days after that as well...because.....J's last day is the 18th! He will be coming home soon after!!!! SO I may wait for him to come home so he can help me move :) My parents don't need to be carrying everything...and I figure it could be a good and casual way for him to meet the folks...little does he know :) My mom is all upset cause she has not met him.

Anyway, I am so excited! My roomie will be moving in Sept 1st. Anyway, it will be good to have some time to adjust and get settled in...PLUS J will have just gotten back and I know I will be highly distracted for at least a week...so it will all work out perfectly!

So in addition to my upcoming freedom, I have a sun burn! My friend K and I layed out today and apparently it was a red ozone day or something...so we are both burnt...she much more than I. She called earlier and was cracking me up....I quote..."You, along with 500 other people would pay good money to see me right now. I am laying butt naked on my couch...I just took a baking soda and vinegar bath and am now laying with milk soaked rags all over my body." Ha! Apparently these are old remedies for bad sun burns...she can't move...I on the other hand must have sun resistent skin...or maybe I just have delayed pain..she already has blisters!

Well, I have work from 8AM till 11PM tomorrow so I best get to bed...sigh..i have a head ache...I LOVE MY LIFE>>>>>really, I do!

Quick Thoughts

Wow, life has been crazy and busy for me. I started blogging the other day and it screwed up. My work schedule has not gotten any better...in fact it has gotten worse, but I am patient and eternally optimistic. The hours have actually gotten crappier and even everyone at work agrees that I am getting screwed, so we will just have to pray it all works out. I am fairly certain that I will forever be known as the girl who complains about her schedule though...but hey...us full time employees should not be getting screwed! Anyway, I would kill for a 9-5 job...but wouldn't we all :) I like my job and the people...just saying there are lots of changes that need to be made.

J is NOT staying till November but I am still uncertain as to when exactly he is coming home. I think probably close to the end of August, but I will be selfish and hope sooner. We have been having some really great conversations lately. We stayed up till 3 the other night talking about the lesson I heard at church and then about faith and "religion" and spirituality. It was a really fun conversation. I am so excited to get him back in the state, but I am also very scared. I am scared. Huh...there you have it...I am. I still have up a pretty big wall with him and I haven't quite figured out why yet...this is gonna sound corny...but there is something about him that I can't quite resist.

Let me explain what I mean...I can talk A LOT...but he and I have talked EVERY day for the last 4 months, excluding MAYBE 7 days. And I would say our conversations average over 3.5 hours. We have actually had an 11 hour conversation. 11 hours! HE does NOT talk that much to people and hates being on the phone...so if that is a lot for me...think about for a guy who never ever talks on the phone! Anyway...I have tried to end things with us twice, I have put limits on how often we talk, I have put limits (in my head) on how serious I can get about him...basically I have set a whole bunch of rules in my head for my relationship with him....and well....I believe I have yet to follow one of those ridiculous rules..there is something about him that draws me in......and I am scared for the day we break each others hearts.....I care a lot about him....this is life...I know. Sigh......