Freedom and Sun Burns

This has been one of the best weekends in a while, nothing spectacular...just good. In case I haven't already said it a million times...I will be moving into MY apartment August 19th! I am so incredibly excited. My future roommate and I went to pick out furniture on Saturday and it is SO cute.

My roomie is buying the furniture cause she has lots of $$$ saved up...I am getting the washer, dryer, table, and TV. I am so pumped. I am moving in by myself on the 19th...and it may be a few days after that as well...because.....J's last day is the 18th! He will be coming home soon after!!!! SO I may wait for him to come home so he can help me move :) My parents don't need to be carrying everything...and I figure it could be a good and casual way for him to meet the folks...little does he know :) My mom is all upset cause she has not met him.

Anyway, I am so excited! My roomie will be moving in Sept 1st. Anyway, it will be good to have some time to adjust and get settled in...PLUS J will have just gotten back and I know I will be highly distracted for at least a week...so it will all work out perfectly!

So in addition to my upcoming freedom, I have a sun burn! My friend K and I layed out today and apparently it was a red ozone day or something...so we are both burnt...she much more than I. She called earlier and was cracking me up....I quote..."You, along with 500 other people would pay good money to see me right now. I am laying butt naked on my couch...I just took a baking soda and vinegar bath and am now laying with milk soaked rags all over my body." Ha! Apparently these are old remedies for bad sun burns...she can't move...I on the other hand must have sun resistent skin...or maybe I just have delayed pain..she already has blisters!

Well, I have work from 8AM till 11PM tomorrow so I best get to bed...sigh..i have a head ache...I LOVE MY LIFE>>>>>really, I do!

Quick Thoughts

Wow, life has been crazy and busy for me. I started blogging the other day and it screwed up. My work schedule has not gotten any better...in fact it has gotten worse, but I am patient and eternally optimistic. The hours have actually gotten crappier and even everyone at work agrees that I am getting screwed, so we will just have to pray it all works out. I am fairly certain that I will forever be known as the girl who complains about her schedule though...but hey...us full time employees should not be getting screwed! Anyway, I would kill for a 9-5 job...but wouldn't we all :) I like my job and the people...just saying there are lots of changes that need to be made.

J is NOT staying till November but I am still uncertain as to when exactly he is coming home. I think probably close to the end of August, but I will be selfish and hope sooner. We have been having some really great conversations lately. We stayed up till 3 the other night talking about the lesson I heard at church and then about faith and "religion" and spirituality. It was a really fun conversation. I am so excited to get him back in the state, but I am also very scared. I am scared. Huh...there you have it...I am. I still have up a pretty big wall with him and I haven't quite figured out why yet...this is gonna sound corny...but there is something about him that I can't quite resist.

Let me explain what I mean...I can talk A LOT...but he and I have talked EVERY day for the last 4 months, excluding MAYBE 7 days. And I would say our conversations average over 3.5 hours. We have actually had an 11 hour conversation. 11 hours! HE does NOT talk that much to people and hates being on the phone...so if that is a lot for me...think about for a guy who never ever talks on the phone! Anyway...I have tried to end things with us twice, I have put limits on how often we talk, I have put limits (in my head) on how serious I can get about him...basically I have set a whole bunch of rules in my head for my relationship with him....and well....I believe I have yet to follow one of those ridiculous rules..there is something about him that draws me in......and I am scared for the day we break each others hearts.....I care a lot about him....this is life...I know. Sigh......

Workin' 9-5.....right

So, I like working and my job is pretty decent...I mean it isn't rocket science, but hey...it pays. My hours right now are all over the place and I haven't seen my friends or family in days! I have the exact opposite schedule of all of my friends and I am beginning to miss them. I haven't seen K in days and I haven't talked to her on the phone in over a week! I saw her for a few minutes the other day while we worked out...but she has a ton going on in her life and I am so behind on everything! I feel so out of the loop. The schedule for the next 3 weeks should be coming out soon and I am hoping my hours are more normal. I lost my 3 day weekends...again...but my boss said I won't have to work Friday nights...so that is good. I hope I last a while at this job! I think I am going to get bored with it soon. I am applying to do mobile assessments with them because it pays very well, but the downfall is I will be working on my days off...we will see..we will see... :)

Anyway, J is off camping ALL next week...camping for work...isn't that crazy....go ahead...join me in my jealousy! What a job! Anyway, I probably won't be talking to him for a few days and I had a package I was making for him...but he won't be getting it anytime soon, so I figured I would just wait till Monday or so before I send it. Tomorrow I have a meeting at work from 10-noon..how much crap is that! We have a saturday morning meeting every other freakin' week! Oh well....we get paid at least...:) Well...I am off to get ready for another day!

August or November?

So this week has been pretty decent. I had today off which was nice cause I worked till 11 Monday...got to bed at midnight only to be up at 5 to make it in to work for a 12 hour shift starting at 7AM! Fun fun! SO, today was good to relax. I started reading this book Through Painted Deserts and I really like it. I use to read all the time when I was younger, but I quit at some point. I guess once they made us read all those books in school and college, I decided I just wouldn't read at all...BUT I am glad I am reading this book...I like it. I like being able to escape into a story! J recommended the book...he actually sent it to me after he read it....so you know it is good!

Speaking of J :) He just received a promotion where he is at...you know at his TEMPORARY job...he got a promotion...they want him to stay there. I guess his boss extended his contract till November and he is trying to figure out if he is going to stay longer or not. He said till November seems like too long, but he is thinking about it and trying to sort it out. I am not saying that he is using me as a reason to come home, but I am saying that I would probably be using him as a reason to come home and not stay up there. And if he is doing that, I don't want him to look back in 5 years and regret coming home for some stupid girl. You know? Anyway, I don't know what he is going to do...but I will be selfish and say that I hope he comes home...I miss him! November....no! August...Yes!!! :) That's right...I am selfish.

I Passed!

Congratulations to me!!! I took my LMSW test on Saturday and I passed! I am so relieved you have no idea! After graduation I didn't feel all that celebratory...cause I needed a job...then after my job I still had to get me license...and NOW I have my license and I am SO excited! I PASSED!!!!! I had been so stressed and am still living in that state where I feel like there is something else I have to "overcome." BUT there isn't...I just have to live...not got to class...not find a job...just live, and I must say...it feels pretty darn good :)

OH, as to why I changed my page...thank you for ya'lls comments by the way :) The friend who was reading is one who has had feelings for me in the past and I no longer felt comfortable writing about whatever I wanted...and after his comment on my last entry...I was very frustrated...THEN he proceeded to blog about one of his "friends" who was making these horrible awful relationship decisions and dating a guy and being unfair to the guy...blah blah blah. Anyway, it was manipulative and made me angry, I confronted him, he deleted his post...and we are fine now, I just told him I was changing my blog and felt it would be best for him to not read it anymore.

SO, here I am FREE to write without having him judge my words and actions!

Life has been pretty good, my sister and her husband have been in town for a few days, they are leaving for Seattle tomorrow. We have a family reunion this weekend and because of my odd work hours, I am unsure if I will be able to go....I think I may end up killing myself trying to get there, but I am gonna try to make it.

J and I are doing great. Tomorrow marks 4 months of us dating...isn't that crazy! 4 months...who would have thought....wow! Well, I am happy...he is happy...we are great...only a little over a month till he comes back :)! (just being pathetic!) I miss him!

New Page

Sorry I changed everything up on ya'll! If you could update my link information I would appreciate it. I had a friend who I decided no longer needs to be reading about my life...so this is what I had to do...oh well...I can start all over! Again..thanks for sticking with me! :)